MISCONCEPTION

    Listen to the tale, not the teller......

  Wow, did i really just talk for over an hour on the phone with temmy? And what was that I felt when the service line notified me of the one minute remaining? *****************sigh!

 A little flashback to about 8 months ago when my life wasn’t all perfect but was filled with love from dear ones. I was very fond of my girls, and left to me, we were the best clique of four in existence. One could easily tell of the strong bond we shared when sighted. We were best of friends, we were like soul sisters that were meant to be together forever. 8 months ago was the last time I ever felt like all I just mentioned, things are way different now.
  I was offered admission and had to leave for school, it was then my whole life changed entirely. Just like michelle, I was the smart and serious type. I always wanted more essence to my life, I always talked of becoming a pacesetter and achieving a lot at my young age, I wouldn’t mind the fame too, I always said. Temmy on the other hand was the meek one, and I often times would get a bit mad at her for so being feeble and not bold while, Annie was an entirely different person from us all. She was the boldest and most beautiful, outings were more of her thing and she always cared less about serious talk but preferred gisting. But then she was the one with the most beautiful soul, an extremely loving person with an open heart.
Overall, I was the smartest amongst us, and being the only one given admission I had to leave them behind and start that journey I had always hoped for.

  Fast forward to 4 months in school, I had done and achieved so much than I imagined. My beauty had done me well by being noticed by a lot of people and getting me the coolest set of friends alongside a face modeling career, but my brains did more by getting me involved with smart and innovative young people in and out of the school, who I always spent more time with talking about great stuffs that can be done to become very successful. I also started my skin care business and made myself good sums of money daily. I was obviously one of the best in my department too even if they were no results to prove it yet, it was known by my performance in class. I was blown away by the things I had achieved in such a short period of time, my life was all sparky and I was an inspiration to many. There was no one that wouldn’t be proud to have me as a friend.
 Somewhere between this period of my success, I got in touch with my girls maybe thrice or so and had multiple short conversations which always died down when I left the chat hanging with no reply, sadly there came a time when there was no call or text again. I was only aware of the fact that they still existed whenever their post comes up on my media timeline, they had more of group pictures from their hangouts and all which never made me feel jealous or miss them as much cause I always felt I had more going for me than their usual hangout, Or maybe I did feel jealous few times but I always imagined them being more envious of me anytime I uploaded cool shots of me modeling, or updates on how well my skin care sales were, or pictures of me in nice places and events with my new set of cool friends. Anything just to rub in in their faces that I was more than them. *********************Sadly, this was where the whole problem began.

*Back To Present Day*

   Two days at home and I’m already bored by staying in all day, so I decided to call the girls and inform them of my arrival, and maybe they’ll ask to hangout with me or come over tomorrow.
  Speaking with Temmy now just made me realize what genuine happiness I had missed in a long while, I had only thought it would be nothing less than 5mins, and I’ll do the same with Michelle and Annie and then we’ll all hangout the coming day. But here I am still trying to figure out how I got lost in the conversation with Temmy and how good it really made me feel, and also how sad dropping the call made me feel due to low airtime. I wish it didn’t end.
 

It’s now midnight, 2:17am to be precise, and I no longer feel that happiness like before, but rather I feel terrible and sad, I feel wrong about everything and I can only seem to ask myself questions which I find hard to answer.
What really went wrong? Why did I suddenly drift away from them? Why was I interested in them feeling intimidated by me when I could have been an inspiration instead? They were probably proud of me and wanted to cheer me on, maybe I killed that vibe every time I didn’t reply or didn’t return those missed calls….they were definitely not those kind of friends that would creep back into people’s life only when the person is succeeding. They’ve always being there even when things weren’t right. They weren’t the toxic kind of friends that would be of bad influence or drag me down, maybe imperfect, yes but then who isn’t? They were my best friends and sisters yet I let ego in and gave up genuine happiness, friendship, love and trust for a life that could have been much more with them in it. Even the smart friends back in school never cared for me as much, the successful young people I badly wanted to surround myself with don’t have beautiful souls like that of Annie or were meek like temmy or made me feel as good as I always did I do when having those smart discussions with Michelle. Yes my life has been going on well, but it could have been better with the right people to celebrate it with. I miss the good times that really reminded me of my existence, the one that made me feel alive.
Well, I’m glad I didn’t realize this too late, I have to set things right tomorrow…….. Can’t wait to feel alive again!

The smartest people are not always the best people, the most skilled ones who seem like a big advantage to you might rip you off with those same skills, that circle of innovative minds that share the same vision with you might not stretch out their hands when you fall or need help. Don’t cut people off just because they don’t think like you or are not at the same pace with you.
Life is not just about surrounding yourself with smart people only, but also the good people. The good ones might have nothing else to offer asides the goodness of their heart, but believe me, it’s a lot and it most times goes a long way than anything else. Learn to strike a balance with the people you surround yourself with. 

   Ireayo